Breaking the Bar- Backstage with WEZSYM
I never intended for this to turn into an EP- it just kept evolving! I set out to simply create music again now as a solo artist- this was a HUGE very vulnerable step! The first song that channeled through was TALK BY NOW- one of two songs on the EP I wrote for by baby brother. I needed this music to dance, cry & process all that has been going on in my world for the last eight months.
I must have re-recorded the vocals with over 50 attempts just trying to get a clean perfect take & I simply had too many feelings to achieve that -WHICH has helped me grow as a singer… to embrace the imperfections of the voice & having the courage to showcase the raw beautifully brutal truths under the words.
The song TOMMY I KNOW is the second song of the paired dedication… finally after months & months of not dancing & spinning I shot a music video opening back up the heart space of who I am as a performer & discovering how this process unfolds on my own. Composing, Recording, Producing, Choreography, Photoshoots, Music Videos… all me myself & I.
ACCOUNTABILITY & PAUSE… WHAT A PLEASURE are both lyrically inspired by some of what I have learned in the last year from the Kabbalah Centre set to epic house/bolly trap beats I with love call “New Age Noise” – this tracks are such fun to listen to with words that really hit home & matter.
I WANNA (WRITE SOMETHING) This track completely revolutionized the way I thought composing worked… I was having a really intimate self-reflecting moment & just hit record. I didn’t have a song structure, lyrics, a full idea ANY of it I just let go & surrendered to where the melody took me. I didn’t end up re-recording the vocals because I was so deeply moved by the whisper prayer feeling of the breathy emotional tones of the voice.
What is it like to be an Independent Artist?
Rewarding, Intense, Revolutionizing … I have evolved SO MUCH as a being being a being in this process. Having the freedom to make all of my own creative choices opens my Scorpio watery mind into oceans of potential chaos- I have had to take many breaks away from attempting to bring my visions to fruition feeling overwhelmed with the ability to do anything without having a bandmate to provide checks & balance.
A huge part of re-programming my reactive behaviors has been embracing time alone without allowing the illusion of loneliness to creep in. When I am recording or in the art studio I am beyond grateful to have that void of space so that I am confident to stumble through learning production, make loud mistakes with singing as I experiment in new genres AND of course to kick over tripods while dancing haha… then there is this moment… when I have created something I am SO EXCITED to share with the world & I find myself turning to share it with someone that is only there in my imagination. This very honest challenge has & continues to help me reconnect to source energy with the holy knowing I am never alone in the company of Creator. I have come to surrender in divine certainty with detached expectation that everything that occurs must & this faith keeps me hopeful for deeper connection.
Where do your ideas come from?
I am merely a channel honored to get out of my own way enough to allow all that is meant to come through me enter the world.
Composing is a very unique form of madness… sometimes I wake up singing from a dream & reach for my phone to record a quick memo, other times I have text threads with friends that turn poetic & thus lyrics are born… other moments I hear a complete song in my head fully completed & then play archeologist to dig out the details to discover what composes that composition…
I stay in the flow by spending LOTS of time in my art studio painting & creating creatures to celebrate the worlds within worlds my reality reveals to me. I have really dedicated my inner child work into play time as of last reliving the childhood I needed. I surrounding myself with my own acceptance & support for all the bizarre art I make DEFINATELY frees me up to have more & more courage as a singer. Having the ability to view all things as connected learning experiences keeps me centered in neutrality without trying to qualify if something I create is “good or bad” haha MUCH of my existence celebrates non-duality.
What Comes Next?
I am already working towards another EP AND a full album. MY next EP will feature many collaborations with three different producers AND I am delighted to announce I am working with stunning new composers who breathe unique life into songs changing the course of their musical DNA! I radiate passion when working with others because the feedback keeps me humble & grounded haha ALSO I find I am as much on the journey of discovering the song as everyone else!
Example: I posted a cell phone recording on Insta of me simply singing a lil vocal diddy that came to mind while I was in the woods- NOW this song has blossomed into a full guitar, vox & flute piece you know as the blooming masterpiece of SOMEDAY LOVE!!!
I have also been spending more of my existence connecting with other humanoids- seeing their process with composing inspires every fiber of my being to keep learning in this grand adventure of music.
THE NEW ALBUM I am working towards is a Lullabies & Light Language spiritual medicine collection. I have facilitated Sound Alchemy sessions starting way back in 2014 – much of the world has changed now & I am honored to open the sacred space to share the channeled messages on the web. Always in all ways I am learning how to rewrite my desire to to receive for the self alone into the desire to share… music, art, dancing, creating- these are my passions that are my purpose to share as my piece of peace.